Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Friends in Disneyland



Really what could be better than two awesome things at once? It just so happened that for one day Tiffany, Josh and Logan were at Disneyland the same day we were. We had such a fabulous time. We switched kids and they were nice enough to do a two for one switch so we could go on the "Tower of Terror". Genevieve had a great time leading Logan around and pointing everything out. She'd say "Log, look over here." Logan was such a good sport, poor child. We had so much fun going on rides together and having a very late dinner too. I think we definitely need to do it again.


*I just so happened to loose our camera that day (Someone found it and turned it in the next day, thank goodness), so I only got this rather lame picture with the phone. Some day I'll finally loose the bad habit of making everything go missing. Some day.

Friday, April 24, 2009

The Happiest Place on Earth



This year I can check off one of those "things to do before I die"--An annual pass to Disneyland. The problem is, is that I'm loving it so much I just want to be an eternal annual pass holder. We've had so much fun going to Disneyland the last six months and this time was awesome. We celebrated Russ and Hannah's birthdays. With no illness and (mostly)happy kids we couldn't have hoped for better. In addition to Disneyland, we also spent a day at the beach. I went surfing and everything. I LOVE surfing even when the water is absolutely frigid! The temperatures weren't though. We left the day the blizzard in Utah was ending to arrive into 103 degree weather. They were breaking all sorts of records. Going from January to August in one day was mind boggling.















Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Highlight and Cut



I'm sitting here kind of sad that I was a bit timid. The highlighting is fairly subtle. I'm wishing I would have gone a bit lighter and I'm not that in love with the cut. Buyers remorse I suppose. I guess I'll give it a couple of weeks. Oh and the weather today highly unacceptable! Good grief! I could have sworn it was January. Rain, yes. Snow, no!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Rain

I absolutely love the rain! I love temperatures in the 50s and 60s and I love cloudy, wet days. The colors are so beautiful on days like today. The grass looks so green and all of the flowering trees look gorgeous. I just want o curl up with a good book, listen to some great music or take a nap. I wish that Hannah was walking so she wouldn't end up sopping wet, but I still love it. Perhaps it's a sign that I should finally move to Portland. Ah green!



Nakusp, BC, Canada- One of the most beautiful places in the world!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Easter Bunny


I've decided I'm really terrible at "being" all of these imaginary creatures. It's a good thing that kids go through a stage where they'll believe anything you say, even if you give the lamest explanation for why some of the candy they've seen before, ends up being given to them by the Easter Bunny. Seriously, with both the Easter Bunny and Santa, this year I've created all sorts of blunders. I've bought toys in front of her and then suddenly remembered that Santa is going to give it to her and she's no longer one and could care less nor remember what I'm buying her. With the Easter bunny, I bought candy and left it out, instead of hiding it. I also suddenly realized at 5 AM when Genevieve woke us up by walking past her Easter basket, eggs and candy that perhaps I should have concealed those a little bit. Good thing it was too dark and she was too sleepy to notice. Otherwise, I would have had to come up with some other lame lie about how the Easter bunny left it in our room because he got sick. I need to get better at lying too. I really don't have much practice making up elaborate lies that sound believable. They're barely passing Gen's scrutinizing. If the children are going to believe in anyone past the age of three, I've got to practice. Despite all my blunders, this whole Easter Bunny thing is fun, really fun. I might just start making up my own holidays with crazy mythical creatures that bring cool stuff. What do you think of the May Day Pirate, Guybrush Threepwood? Arrrrgggg!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Dating Russ


is incredible. We've been having such a great time actually going out, all by ourselves. Ever since posting about this before, we've been going out every week. I just want to say thanks for your advice and help. It's been great. I highly recommend it. Well dating your own significant other, that is. Now we just need to actually take some pictures with just us. :)

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

If I'm Honest


Thanks for all of your sweet and helpful comments. But if I'm being honest, it's not just one bad day, it's been years. I want to be honest because even though I don't have a huge readership, maybe there is someone else out there who is going through something similar and my story will help them feel like they aren't alone and they might be able to learn from my experiences. I don't know what's wrong with me. I love my kids. I love spending time with them, but I really hate being a stay-at-home mom. I know! Horror of horrors! It's taken me a long time to admit it to myself, but there it is and all of the shame that comes with it. I don't know why I'm not like all of those other Mormon moms or other stay-at-home moms, but I'm not. I've been really depressed for some time now. I cry a lot. I'm tired a lot even when I get enough sleep. Even when I have the chance to do some things I don't want to do them. Russ and I have been trying to figure out what can help me. I have an awesome husband. He really picks up more than his fair share and is really sweet with his stressed, sad, frustrated wife. He's listened to me cry and tried to console his impossible to console wife. I really don't want anyone else raising my kids. I don't want to take them to day care and so for a long time I've been at a seemingly impossible impasse. But then I realized a few hours a day isn't having someone raise my kids. Having someone I trust come watch my kids everyday, while I do something different, isn't abandoning them. If a few hours lets me have a break, helps me be happier and makes me miss them and want to be a better mom when I'm with them, then what do I have to loose? I'm going to try it. If it doesn't work for us I can always quit. But I'm going to try this. I need to. I'm grateful for a husband who just wants me to be happy and although I'm sure he'd rather I'd stay home full-time (even though he'd never say it), he is so supportive of me stretching my wings.

Friday, April 3, 2009

I've Officially Had It!


Hannah is screaming and won't take her nap and Genevieve had a pee accident today in a toy store. And when I call Russ to get some sympathy I hear him laughing with co-workers after he's just enjoyed a lunch without children. I always wanted to be a stay at home mom, but I need a break or I'm going to go stark raving mad. So if you hear of any part time jobs away from home, let me know.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My Hair


I've never colored, highlighted, permed or really done anything to my hair. I've been seriously toying with the idea of highlighting my hair for a month now. I finally took the plunge and made an appointment, but it's still two weeks away and it gives me plenty of time to back out. I'm scared. I think it will probably not look disastrous, in fact I'm sure it's something I should have done years ago, but I'm scared of the constant cost. I hate dark, nasty looking roots and so I know I must be vigilant, but I'm not sure our money is going to like that. I'm also worried that it's going to damage my hair and make it look frizzy, dry and straw-like. So what do you think? Have you highlighted your hair? Is there going back once you've done it and don't want to pay for the upkeep anymore? Please educated a beauty illiterate dimwit.